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This morning I was thinking about LOA when something went wrong, I can’t remember what it was.  I remembered form the movie, The Secret, that if you get mad about it and really focus your emotions (anger) on it, a series of bad things will occur.  So I decided to live life in a fun and happy way.  I took the kids to the park, came home and am now writing outside in my journal while the kids play in the dirt with some sand toys.  Its about creating moments that leave you feeling fufilled, not negative emotions or memories.

A couple of weeks ago I mentioned that I needed a dentist appt but didn’t really feel like making that appointment.  I used the law of attraction to get me an easy appointment at a good time and I didn’t have to really lift a finger to do it!  What a deal.  Well, I have been needing my yearly checkup at the Women’s health clinic but was having a bit trouble doing so.  For one, I was procrastinating.  Then I finally gave in and called and got the wrong number, so I hung up.  I thought I should use LOA to manifest myself an appointment or at least motivation for me to find the right number and call back.  Well, today in the mail I get a letter from the Women’s clinic persuading me to do my annual checkup AND if I DO, they will sign a waiver where I will get a $50 Wal-mart gift card!! Whoo hoo!  Now THAT is some good motivation.  I’ll call Monday asap!

Sometimes you manifest something you want but don’t like the road it takes to get there.  But, what I think, you have to do is keep in mind the end result.  I wanted to stay home more with my child, so its happenning, but it also means that I am giving up an internship to do it.  I got to remember I can do this internship at a later date.  I also have to think of the pluses.

1. I get to stay home more with my baby.

2. Save a lot of money on childcare.

3. Will have more time next semester to do my practicum then, instead.

4. If I push myself (which I hope to) I can write more, for pay.  I’ll have more free time to do it.

5. Next year will be half practicum, half electives, which is a nice combo.

6. I can get straight A’s this semester since I will be able to concentrate on school full-time, and not be distracted by work.

7. I can still volunteer at that place where I was gonna do my practicum.

Yeah, it feels dissapointing but at least I’m trying to focus on the positives.  I know I attracted it, so I gotta roll with it and define what I really want.

Oprah has begun her Best Life series this week.  There are some parts that inspired me and got me thinking.  I love how she and her guests kept mentioning that 2009 is OUR year to work on OURSELVES.  So many of us are so selfless and do not give ourselves all the respect we need and deserve.  Funny enough, I’m seeing this trend everywhere.  I can relate it back to loa and say I am attracting large masses of people telling me 2009 is the year to nurture myself.  Well, I’m listening.  I’ve written my 25 accomplishments for the previous year (2008) and three ways I’ve grown.  I’ve also wrote a journal entry which I hardly ever do.  I’m hoping this inspiration continues inside me as I’m fully inspired to make 2009 MY year!